Rage turned inwards
I have sometimes referred to suicide as rage turned inward. I have felt that rage and remember considering gutting myself in front of an ex-girlfriend or holding a gun during a phone argument with another. Sometimes, there is the belief that “Now, they’ll see my pain and SUFFER!” There is also the feeling that you have no other way out.
I saw this article today, which looks at the Great Depression era, male suicides and what happens when we cannot resolve feeling stigmas that attack our identity.
I have learned to move past such rages, inward and out but, every day, others face that battle and lose. I cannot claim to have the answer, other than to say two things:
1) You need to be ready to give people a hand up. Sometimes, they just need a little help to stand.
2) You need to define yourself by more than what you do for a living. That will change, sometimes drastically.